What am I?

Every now and then a stranger is interested in my nationality or what race I am. The conversation usually goes something similar to this:
“So where are you from?”
“Cape Town, born and bred.”
“And your parents?”
“I think they were both born in Port Elizabeth.”
“Oh, so what nationality are you?”
“South African”
Eventually the conversation withers down to “Chinese”.
This got me thinking, what am I? Anyone who knows me well, knows I am the furthest thing from chinese, apart from eating the food. But, hell, I got a friend who is British and he enjoys it too. I don’t speak it or practice any cultural celebrations. If I had to be honest, I don’t feel a strong connection to my heritage. Does this make me bad? Is it really that sad? Because I don’t have pride for a country I haven’t even been to? So, am I Chinese?
Am I South African? Yes. But mainly because of location, it’s the name of the country I was born and live in. But do I believe in and support what the leadership that represents South Africa? No, but I love where I live. So, am I South African?
Am I Capetonian? Yes, but only because where it is situated on the map, but if it were named differently I’d also be whatever it were called.
So, What am I? Am I my profession, my musical taste or hobby? I guess I’m all those things, but I’m also an effect of time. Our qualities develop & evolve through countless challenges over time. So, what am I? What are you?
Maybe our qualities should be what defines us and not labels, boundaries and borders.
Little do we know that it is the variations that keep us alive.
So what am I? I guess I’m human.

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Puzzles

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You and I are puzzles residing in a greater puzzle.
Let’s align our pieces. Make a shape to make a picture, because without us solving for our individual puzzle, we can’t expect to see the bigger picture whether that bigger picture is two puzzles or the sum total of every existing thing.

The abstract, chaotic pieces are there, we just need to make sense of them and shift them in to place, maybe then we will see not puzzles, but art – as life should be seen.

Everything happens for a reason

I have been thinking of my mom a lot this last week. She always used to say “Everything happens for a reason”. I always thought I understood what this saying meant, but in hind sight, I don’t think I did. The way I understood things when I was younger is so very different to how I comprehend things now, even common sayings such as this one.

Everything does happen for a reason. I believe in the cosmic concept or the universal concept of give and take, or cause and effect. There are many ways to word this concept, but simply, for every action there is a reaction. Even when that cause or action goes beyond our physical perception – just because we are unable to perceive and sense it, does not mean it doesn’t exist. Our understanding is greatly limited by our experience and learnings through life, which is often based on another person’s understanding of their experiences causing them to create their own theories based on their comprehension of said experiences. As history has taught us, our initial insight began from a very narrow-minded view-point which was based on what we could perceive and understand, but gradually grew wider as time went on. Only those who dared to philosophize greater abstract theories and concepts challenged conventional views and was/is often met with aggressive resistance. Again, this doesn’t mean that those concepts are entirely incorrect, but at the same time it also doesn’t mean that it is entirely correct either. A duality exists. If these crazy, abstract concepts and ideas were not there to challenge, then evolution would never progress…or perhaps it would just be gradual until the point in time and space when the challenge is ready and necessary. To evolve means to, to some degree, break and crack that mould that has been perpetuated for however long, until some point in evolution where the status quo or paradigm shifts, due to the evolution of the concept and it’s force upon our physical plane of experience and comprehension.

If we try to follow the concept of cause and effect, eventually it will get to a point where it falls outside our accepted spectrum of comprehension, simply because we probably haven’t reached the point in our personal/collective point of evolution to fully understand the abstract concepts which we can’t see because it is beyond our human existence.
Everything happens for a reason, even if that reason lays in the blurry periphery of our comprehension. There are currents of probability and possibility that pushes and pulls at the very physical existence of what we perceive and know, and if we are able to quieten our minds and allow ourselves to be a bit more flexible and open-minded, we may just get a glimpse of the patterns that show up in our day-to-day lives and not always just pass it off as coincidence and insignificant. As humans we like things to think and see in black and white, as it is easier to identify but life is most certainly not like that. It is not one or the other, but often the synthesis of both.  Just like the colour spectrum is seemingly made of a multitude of perceivable colours, but when you spin the colour wheel the colours synthesize and produces an all encompassing white light.

What is my point? Things do happen for a reason, whether or not we are conscious of it, but I am willing to bet that once we are somewhat aware of the law of cause and effect our understanding hopefully widens and we can make appropriate decisions based on our insight which would have increased. Perhaps it is also our very human trait of noticing and identifying the obvious divisions and differences in life that, to some point, limits our mental comprehension and has its effects in our physical lives. Things are often not as obvious like a spinning colour wheel. I bet if we took the time to look closer and slow down just a bit, forget instant gratification for a few moments, we will see that things are often a lot more complicated and are made up of a few different variables, maybe we as humans can be a bit more compassionate and empathic.

All of this makes me wonder if the evolution of a concept or an idea is really any different from the evolution of human, a planet or even a solar system…

Instantaneous living

This instant gratification that we strive for is damaging. It’s leading us to daily impatience due to our expectation, which is based on our ability to get more things done faster – thanks a great deal to technology. Although these things that have sprouted from our creative minds to fill a space to suit a task and improve it are great and wonderful, but it shouldn’t mean that we should adopt a motto of : ‘we have the ability, so therefore we must’. This attitude, I believe, is far more dangerous than we like to think.

Technology is at a place where things are being improved at a steady rate and because it is seen as helpful, our perception of these gadgets and abilities also shift with them. It is allowing us to accomplish more and more in less time and that eventually becomes standardized, setting the bar for the masses to follow. Doing more things in less time is great, but to what end?
When demands are constantly met, expectation no doubt eventually also creeps in. When there is a new breakthrough allowing for even more things to be done in even less time (which may eventually become the norm) expectation will also shift. It will get to the point where we demand the impossible out of people and due to our expectation of the ‘standard’  we will eventually make it impossible for ourselves to be human.

Add to this the fear of our mortality, our safety and thus our dependability on money. This creates an illusion of time. If this instantaneous obsession becomes the norm, then we begin to fear that we are running out of time. So we do more with gadgets that allow us to do still more in that time. Eventually we spend the majority of our waking life in a career we didn’t necessarily want, all to make some money to create a personal life we spend a fraction of time living. This pressure of the illusion of time causes stress in many people’s lives and that stress expresses itself  as discomfort and dis-ease in the human unit (both mentally, emotionally and physically), much of which is unnecessary.

We need to practice intelligent moderation and balance. Life is dynamic and is forever changing and we do need to move with it, but all in moderation. We need to show control and intelligent balance demands the greatest of control, for one needs to know when to make a willing sacrifice for the well-being of not only the single human unit, but for humanity in general.

Concept of evolution of the subtle, intangible planes

 

When we think of evolution we tend only to think in terms of man evolving from ape to modern day Homo Sapiens. This can and is debated to death with different religious views etc. I ask you to briefly put those thoughts to one side as I entertain the idea of evolution with relevance to consciousness and those subtle, intangible planes of existence.

Everything evolves, even a thought. A thought can evolve to the point where it is no longer just alive in the invisible mind stuffs, but can eventually gain enough momentum and enough gravity for that initial idea to create a physical effect and manifest.

 

The same can be said for the single human unit’s consciousness, and if we expand, the same goes for the human consciousness as a collective or a mass sum. I believe we still know far too little about our ancient past and the so called ‘facts’ we know are so varied that it leaves the average person confused, so they believe what they are taught in our educational institutions, which I am sad to say is flawed.
Whether we did evolve from ape or if there was a cross synthesis between two or more species/sub-species or whatever, evolution still played a roll.
Physical discoveries based on observation is the most basic way of learning. Through observing patterns and repetition in nature, our earliest ancestors took these discoveries to heart and implemented whatever system to use for the better of self or their community.
Even the systems that were based on their observations evolved. The system gets implemented as often as possible because it is seen as benevolent. Eventually the system evolves to the point where we become so use to it that it becomes common place and eventually over time the general population of the future generations may forget the reason for the initial system, and then the system becomes that unwavering truth that they have benefited from for generations.

 

Because that initial idea (which evolved into whatever system) has become so evolved and because it has done so slowly over many decades and generations, the community often does not see the small changes and cracks the system makes over time, not only to the physical life of the community, but also the mental and even emotional life of each human unit and the collective as a whole. Each unit interprets everything slightly differently. This obviously has consequences between individual human units and also similar minded units who congregate into ‘organizations’. So often these ‘organizations’ are at the heart of conflict, even though each unit within these organizations sits ever so differently on the scale of the true ideal that the organization centers itself around, even though the views of this future generation is based on the understanding of their elders/ancestors of that initial idea/system.
If the current generations are unaware and not conscious of the changes and cracks that every system is bound to produce (whatever it may be) and we continue blindly with the initial system because the result is easier to see because perhaps it is more tangible, then the cracks and changes on the more subtle planes (i.e Emotional and mental) will continue to grow. When the unseen forces/energies continue evolving in one way and the physical system doesn’t change to ‘counteract’ these new or different variables into the system and synthesize them practically then the physical form will eventually break…only to eventually reform and rebuild – such is the concept of evolution.

 

We have evolved physically to the point where we are authorities on this planet. We are in a place of power where we are able to change an idea, ideals and even realities in pretty significant ways. What prevents us at the moment, I think, is that the majority isn’t at the point of a mental evolution where we don’t only just concern ourselves with the individual unit, but also concern ourselves as a collective entity, that of a human consciousness. The majority has mastered existing in physical life but struggle on the emotional and mental sides of life. These subtler planes, I believe, are important as everything physical is born from the intangible consciousness or mental plane. Once enough human units have shifted from a very physical, egocentric state of mind to one that incorporates not only one of self, but also one that includes the collective, then one will see more of a positive change for humanity and eventually the planet. I feel that this is the direction of evolution for the human consciousness, from a dim self-awareness to one that knows what itself is as a fully functioning human unit, to one that knows that it’s development and the sustaining of not only the human unit, but humanity and the planet as a whole, lies in the expansion and evolution of the human mind.
Humanity’s crux is one of harmony through conflict. Think about it.

 

 

Care so much so you don’t care at all…

I think you have to care and give a shit about something (or someone) so fucking much that you believe with every fiber in your being that you can only be that which you believe and know to be, through your day-to-day life with everyday deeds, to the point that what others believe is irrelevant to your being (unless you choose for it to be) and you start not unnecessarily concerning yourself with the opinions of others, and because you know yourself so well, you allow others to be what they want to believe themselves to be, because at the end of the day they are exactly like you – so incredibly unique and different, just like everybody else who ever existed…