A letter to my sum total

Dedicated to the desolation of Smaug…

My dearest Heart and Body,

I felt as though I should write you both this letter before we endure this journey together. I am the eldest of us and I’ve been through this process before, and I feel that perhaps these words will some how help prepare us in some unconscious way, at some point in the future.

The three of us are all separate beings, yet at the same time, we are one. We exist in a realm of free will (to some extent) and even though I have experienced this before, it is different and I too will be learning new lessons because of the two of you. Together we make up a dynamic being, both seen and unseen. We are a balance of our separate selves – a synergy, but believe me there will be times where one of us will be predominant and take lead. We will all have countless chances and we will all learn and share from each others mistakes and glories – this is what pushes and evolves us through the consequences of those results, but remember we experience it all together. We will each feel the effects of each others choices and actions. At times we may even betray each other unknowingly as we each speak different languages. You won’t understand it at first, but conditions and environment play a major part in our dynamic and being, and we each will want to react differently. Hopefully over time we will become more in tune with one another and realize we are bigger than our separate selves, then hopefully truth will shine through like a back-lit canopy casting light sparingly on the shadows of our periphery. In time hopefully we become brighter – that is my hope for us.

To my heart, you are the most sacred of things in this life, the being we want to protect the most as you are the most fragile yet malleable. Our dear Body fears for your fragility and I fear of the potential of your malleability. This will eventually cause us to disagree on certain topics and affect our decisions which we choose together and experience together. Heart, you will experience the brunt of our choices, the effect of which has the ability to shape, mend and bend you, even to the point of shattering. The effects on you affects our Body and myself in different ways. The way in which you shape is incredibly important to the sum total of us. You will break, bend and mend to varying degrees, on seemingly differing levels of importance. You must be aware of the shape you cool yourself into, because sometimes you will bend into a shape that causes cuts and wounds and if, like metal, you cool down into that serrated shape it becomes difficult to cause a fire and heat in order to be able to mend and round your vicious edges. Sometimes you may bend unwillingly, unknowingly or naively into a shape you don’t like or other hearts, bodies and souls may not like. Sometimes you won’t know any better and are at the mercy of elements in the realm of our Body. Our Body should look after you, but it too is its own being and has free will. Sometimes our Body may betray us in moments of weakness, but we should not be too hard on it as we are responsible for its conditioning. We are a dynamic synergy and we are responsible as a whole, even though we are separate free-willed beings. The catch, my dear Heart and Body, is that to learn, condition and evolve each of ourselves together as one, requires experiences which predominantly takes place in the realm of our dear and fearless Body. That is where our Body is king, just as emotion is your realm, Heart, and ideals are mine. We work separately and as one – I cannot stress this enough.

To my fearless Body, you are our doorway to the collective reality of this life. You are the youngest and less experienced of the three of us and your conditioning and quality of life is largely mine and our Heart’s responsibility. Remember, you have free will and sometimes you will not always abide to our wishes. You and our heart share a close relationship, one that I will not always understand, and I know there will be times when the two of you will conspire against me and my ideals. We each have our strengths and weaknesses, like every being in existence. I have a foresight that the two of you won’t necessarily be able to recognize and due to the lack of foresight the two of you share, you will rebel and we will lose balance within our dynamic. Hopefully we learn in those times of crises. The only way to regain balance is for the three of us to come to an unspoken compromise that can only be attained in time, experience and sacrifice. We should become purposeful and disciplined but at the same time we cannot be overly hard on ourselves and each other, as evolution takes time and to evolve means learning and to learn means the destruction of one ideal and the creation of a new, better one. That is where I serve the both of you. Within my realm time is an illusion and that is something the both of you will struggle to understand. Time is a necessity for evolution and because you don’t posses the foresight and understanding I have, the effect of time is different for you and it will cause you to make decisions and act out in ways that may not be intended, and this is where Karma works. Karma is an extraneous force and being, which the three of us won’t fully understand, but it is necessary for everyone’s evolution. No human or being of any kind is exempt from its laws. We may at times like it, or not like it but it is there. It is not about winning or losing, but learning and understanding which makes Karma one of the greatest teachers, should we be able to see and identify when it is at work…and it is always working.

Dear Body, you are physically the strongest and you bare the brunt of living in the accepted collective reality and therefore you are perceived more real than your Heart and I – this is your weakness. You have an ego and it often tells you that you are the only one that matters, this hurts your heart and myself, because there will be countless times that your ego will get in the way and distort whatever limited foresight you have, causing you to make decisions without your heart and I having any say. This is to be expected, but also realize that is not necessarily who you are. You are part of a sum total of three – you, your heart and me. Those moments of crises will come, where bad judgment and vulnerability will cause you to manifest actions that will affect not only you, but me and our precious heart too, even the hearts of other beings can be affected by your actions.
Body, you are powerful and your actions are powerful, so be careful how you express yourself as it has very real effects on us and on others. Having said that, it is mine and our Heart’s responsibility to teach and condition you and hopefully sooner rather than later your ego will wane and you will know there is more than you – that there is more than just the three of us. Sometimes we will forget that.
The past does matter and so do consequences. Why does it matter? It matters because the past, with the aid of Karma and consequences, teaches us and hopefully we learn. Hopefully I never fail the both of you with my ideals that you cannot see. Heart, hopefully with my ideals and lessons of consequences, Karma and the past, you shape yourself into a beautiful shape that is unwavering yet compassionate. This shape that you create yourself into colours and conditions our beloved body and your shape, my dearest Heart, is more so my responsibility than our Body’s. I will try not fail you, as I hope that the both of you don’t fail me, and when we do fail one another, be loving, compassionate and understanding and learn from our mistakes. We are an ecosystem. I am you and you are me, we are one, even though each of us are free.

Here’s to our voyage, to our glories, our failures and the lessons and consequences each one brings and as time passes may it bring us closer together making us evermore one, not only with each other, but with those other ecosystems and sum totals that are in existence. To those other ecosystems and sum totals of bodies, hearts and souls that may feel our effects negatively, we are truly sorry and remorseful.

Here’s to the journey, may we become more evolved and better equipped as it unfolds. I love you all.

All my love

Soul

Everything happens for a reason

I have been thinking of my mom a lot this last week. She always used to say “Everything happens for a reason”. I always thought I understood what this saying meant, but in hind sight, I don’t think I did. The way I understood things when I was younger is so very different to how I comprehend things now, even common sayings such as this one.

Everything does happen for a reason. I believe in the cosmic concept or the universal concept of give and take, or cause and effect. There are many ways to word this concept, but simply, for every action there is a reaction. Even when that cause or action goes beyond our physical perception – just because we are unable to perceive and sense it, does not mean it doesn’t exist. Our understanding is greatly limited by our experience and learnings through life, which is often based on another person’s understanding of their experiences causing them to create their own theories based on their comprehension of said experiences. As history has taught us, our initial insight began from a very narrow-minded view-point which was based on what we could perceive and understand, but gradually grew wider as time went on. Only those who dared to philosophize greater abstract theories and concepts challenged conventional views and was/is often met with aggressive resistance. Again, this doesn’t mean that those concepts are entirely incorrect, but at the same time it also doesn’t mean that it is entirely correct either. A duality exists. If these crazy, abstract concepts and ideas were not there to challenge, then evolution would never progress…or perhaps it would just be gradual until the point in time and space when the challenge is ready and necessary. To evolve means to, to some degree, break and crack that mould that has been perpetuated for however long, until some point in evolution where the status quo or paradigm shifts, due to the evolution of the concept and it’s force upon our physical plane of experience and comprehension.

If we try to follow the concept of cause and effect, eventually it will get to a point where it falls outside our accepted spectrum of comprehension, simply because we probably haven’t reached the point in our personal/collective point of evolution to fully understand the abstract concepts which we can’t see because it is beyond our human existence.
Everything happens for a reason, even if that reason lays in the blurry periphery of our comprehension. There are currents of probability and possibility that pushes and pulls at the very physical existence of what we perceive and know, and if we are able to quieten our minds and allow ourselves to be a bit more flexible and open-minded, we may just get a glimpse of the patterns that show up in our day-to-day lives and not always just pass it off as coincidence and insignificant. As humans we like things to think and see in black and white, as it is easier to identify but life is most certainly not like that. It is not one or the other, but often the synthesis of both.  Just like the colour spectrum is seemingly made of a multitude of perceivable colours, but when you spin the colour wheel the colours synthesize and produces an all encompassing white light.

What is my point? Things do happen for a reason, whether or not we are conscious of it, but I am willing to bet that once we are somewhat aware of the law of cause and effect our understanding hopefully widens and we can make appropriate decisions based on our insight which would have increased. Perhaps it is also our very human trait of noticing and identifying the obvious divisions and differences in life that, to some point, limits our mental comprehension and has its effects in our physical lives. Things are often not as obvious like a spinning colour wheel. I bet if we took the time to look closer and slow down just a bit, forget instant gratification for a few moments, we will see that things are often a lot more complicated and are made up of a few different variables, maybe we as humans can be a bit more compassionate and empathic.

All of this makes me wonder if the evolution of a concept or an idea is really any different from the evolution of human, a planet or even a solar system…

Concept of evolution of the subtle, intangible planes

 

When we think of evolution we tend only to think in terms of man evolving from ape to modern day Homo Sapiens. This can and is debated to death with different religious views etc. I ask you to briefly put those thoughts to one side as I entertain the idea of evolution with relevance to consciousness and those subtle, intangible planes of existence.

Everything evolves, even a thought. A thought can evolve to the point where it is no longer just alive in the invisible mind stuffs, but can eventually gain enough momentum and enough gravity for that initial idea to create a physical effect and manifest.

 

The same can be said for the single human unit’s consciousness, and if we expand, the same goes for the human consciousness as a collective or a mass sum. I believe we still know far too little about our ancient past and the so called ‘facts’ we know are so varied that it leaves the average person confused, so they believe what they are taught in our educational institutions, which I am sad to say is flawed.
Whether we did evolve from ape or if there was a cross synthesis between two or more species/sub-species or whatever, evolution still played a roll.
Physical discoveries based on observation is the most basic way of learning. Through observing patterns and repetition in nature, our earliest ancestors took these discoveries to heart and implemented whatever system to use for the better of self or their community.
Even the systems that were based on their observations evolved. The system gets implemented as often as possible because it is seen as benevolent. Eventually the system evolves to the point where we become so use to it that it becomes common place and eventually over time the general population of the future generations may forget the reason for the initial system, and then the system becomes that unwavering truth that they have benefited from for generations.

 

Because that initial idea (which evolved into whatever system) has become so evolved and because it has done so slowly over many decades and generations, the community often does not see the small changes and cracks the system makes over time, not only to the physical life of the community, but also the mental and even emotional life of each human unit and the collective as a whole. Each unit interprets everything slightly differently. This obviously has consequences between individual human units and also similar minded units who congregate into ‘organizations’. So often these ‘organizations’ are at the heart of conflict, even though each unit within these organizations sits ever so differently on the scale of the true ideal that the organization centers itself around, even though the views of this future generation is based on the understanding of their elders/ancestors of that initial idea/system.
If the current generations are unaware and not conscious of the changes and cracks that every system is bound to produce (whatever it may be) and we continue blindly with the initial system because the result is easier to see because perhaps it is more tangible, then the cracks and changes on the more subtle planes (i.e Emotional and mental) will continue to grow. When the unseen forces/energies continue evolving in one way and the physical system doesn’t change to ‘counteract’ these new or different variables into the system and synthesize them practically then the physical form will eventually break…only to eventually reform and rebuild – such is the concept of evolution.

 

We have evolved physically to the point where we are authorities on this planet. We are in a place of power where we are able to change an idea, ideals and even realities in pretty significant ways. What prevents us at the moment, I think, is that the majority isn’t at the point of a mental evolution where we don’t only just concern ourselves with the individual unit, but also concern ourselves as a collective entity, that of a human consciousness. The majority has mastered existing in physical life but struggle on the emotional and mental sides of life. These subtler planes, I believe, are important as everything physical is born from the intangible consciousness or mental plane. Once enough human units have shifted from a very physical, egocentric state of mind to one that incorporates not only one of self, but also one that includes the collective, then one will see more of a positive change for humanity and eventually the planet. I feel that this is the direction of evolution for the human consciousness, from a dim self-awareness to one that knows what itself is as a fully functioning human unit, to one that knows that it’s development and the sustaining of not only the human unit, but humanity and the planet as a whole, lies in the expansion and evolution of the human mind.
Humanity’s crux is one of harmony through conflict. Think about it.

 

 

A thought on the nature of things…

I see words and language as symbols of greater concepts which cannot necessarily be explained, but we try. We try to convey the thoughts and images in our head using words. People are different, each understands and conceptualizes differently and therefore their outlook is somewhat slightly distorted to what you may see and understand. Some of us use art to interpret our thoughts and then convey what we have learned. Some people get it, others don’t. There is no surprise to me that there is so much disagreement and conflict in the world. That’s the nature of things I guess. I like to think we all believe in the same thing, we just label things differently, give slightly different symbolism for the same concepts. Perhaps some put more emphasis in the symbol (the physical) and tend to neglect the concept (spiritual). Maybe it is the concepts we should be mentally submersing ourselves in, trying to understand the concept by action. I like to think that this creates a balance between your physical self and your higher consciousness/spirit/soul whatever you like to call it.

I like to see the universe (existence/life/God/whatever you would like to call it) as a self-sufficient “machine” if you will. Similar to a pocket watch with all its cogs and wheels; everything the pocket watch needs to work, resides inside. If the universe is indeed self-sufficient, then every single cog and wheel within this grand universe is imperative for the universe to function. No matter how small the cog may seem, it will affect the cogs around it and in turn they will affect others and so on and so forth.

The universe is in constant motion, for it is the motion that keeps life together. Planets, solar systems and galaxies, all constantly hurtling through space, never remaining in the same place – forever changing. If the universe itself lives upon this principle of change or evolution, surely this concept relates even to such insignificant cogs such as ourselves, for do we not reside within the universe?

I like to think there is an unseen connection or thread that permeates everything in existence and it is this connection we should be seeking. If we understand and can identify the connections, can we not relate it to aspects of our personal existence? Perhaps the universe does converse with us on a daily basis. Perhaps our pride over the symbol prevents us from widening our gaze and exploring the concepts. We should not be so concerned what we call God, we should be more concerned with the concept and what it has to teach us. Too often its the names and symbols that hinder peace and love. Things are different, things are varied. Maybe it is that way because the universe has not stopped moving since it began. Perhaps it evolved from one simple concept, which gave rise to others but the connection between all is always there. If we can see past the differences and look for the connections the world, I think, will be a friendlier more loving place.

A new year, a new beginning…

A happy new year to my readers, I trust the last of your 2012 was fantastic and your 2013 is off to a positive start.

This past festive season has been an enlightening time for me. I cannot explain, but it truly feels as though I see things slightly more clearly. Throughout the year our experience and decisions somewhat accumulate and ofttimes we are unable to deal with them and give them their due attention. Sometimes it is hard to confront situations and people and we end up dismissing them and we convince ourselves that we will deal with it a bit later. These issues don’t get resolved and you will often find that it’s these issues that weigh heavy on your mind and anchor you down, preventing you from moving on – evolving.

What we need to understand is that life and existence is not stagnant. Everything keeps on going, there is always a movement and we need to be aware so we too can “move with the times” so to speak. Nothing is ever in the same place. The earth, solar system, even our galaxy is in perpetual motion, speeding through space – every moment different in time and space to the next, an evolution if you will.

It is the natural progression of life and we should also be striving to progress – better ourselves. To do this we must learn, act and evolve and this can only be done if there is nothing holding you back. Those issues that lay unresolved are lessons waiting to be learned. To truly learn a life lesson, I believe we must live out our conclusions or morals. This, I believe, leads us to enlightenment so we can be a more evolved being, one that is more than mere flesh and bone. Our existence and being is more than just a physical. We are  intellectual, sentient beings capable of infinite imagination and higher consciousness. This makes us more evolved than animal, not better, just more evolved.

I feel we should be striving for a stronger higher consciousness as opposed to satisfying our “animal conscience”, which I think is our physical, earthly body. We have a higher consciousness, which I believe can give us control over our conditioned minds. I think we need to be awakened to our higher consciousness, which I feel can be done by truly learning life’s lessons –  find the connection between everything and live your conclusion.

There is always a price –  a cause and effect. That price is our conditioned way of thinking, which often goes against the grain of society or our selfish, animalistic tendencies.  Are you willing to pay? To let go of your conditioned way of thinking, even if that means swimming against society’s current? That is often the price – popularity.

I hope you were all able to confront those issues that may have been haunting you in 2012, and may your slate be clean for 2013. A new cycle has begun and with it will come lessons…

 

 

The lowly apple core

“The lowly apple core”

The lowly apple core sits discarded.

It was once full-bodied and ripe;

many an eye found wanting its offerings.

A natural perfection, moist with life waiting to be eaten;

A purpose so logical, we don’t think twice.

But now the core lay bare,

its essence subtracted;

leaving seeds to be reborn.

Eventually new life emerges.

A cycle begins, continues and ends;

waiting to be eaten,

waiting to be reborn.

The story of every lowly apple core.

 

© Observing Vessel