18 Hours

It’s 07:39 on Monday morning. I’m standing in my kitchen because that is the only place wi-fi seems to work. I have just realized Christmas is done – Along with opening presents, good-will and cheer. The faces of the new year are slowly taking shape. It’s almost as if the dawning of stress from days that are yet to come have inverted the festive cheer and slightly twisted some people’s smiles. This year has been crazy; filled to the brim with dualities and I can’t help but reflect on the significance of some of the things I have observed, experienced and learned. For Christmas I got my notebook to scribble down my thoughts, and over the past two days I have been reflecting and scribbling. This is my final post for this year, 2013. This is me letting go and appreciating all the year had to offer. This year went by so fast – in a blink of an eye, but I learned my lessons. Enjoy the hours that are left in this year and allow me to share how I saw these past months…

18 Hours

1.
I saw ideas grow like trees;
giving breath to life and support to the living.

2.
I saw life as an ocean and myself as a library.
I saw the new year as a sunrise
but at the time I was too asleep to appreciate it.

3.
I witnessed intentions like a flame igniting wicks.
I also saw careless flames melt candles and set fire to curtains
reducing mansions to dying cinders,
but sometimes tears are stronger than fire
lifting the Phoenix from out our ashes.

4.
I learned angels can sometimes fall
and humans are able to carry them.

5.
I realized will is stronger than cancer
and souls are brighter than the shadows of love.

6.
I found expression was a direct telephone line to God;
He doesn’t speak human – so many hang-up –
but I find myself on the phone more often.

7.
I learned drum beats do more than keep melodies together
they are universes themselves
and they are waiting to be painted.

8.
I discovered how to let roses be
and how to appreciate them;
thorns and all,
because they don’t have to be plucked to be admired.

9.
I learned grey skies can block out the sun
but the rain it sometimes brings can cleanse the heaviness of souls.

10.
I discovered a half glass of water can eventually become the heaviest of burdens
and all I had to do was put it down.

11.
There were times I felt like Atlas
struggling to hold up the celestial sphere
but I saw angels and their wings beating for my heart
and the world didn’t seem so heavy.

12.
My heart was an actor
it played the role of a mirror.
Love was the sharpest of arrows and when it was released
it shattered my mirror into a thousand different pieces.
But I realized it still reflected and as I leaned in over the floor where it lay –
I found myself.

13.
I struggled to find the keys to unlock this cage
and when I found it,
I left its doors wide open,
even though the wind sometimes blows it closed.

14.
I saw expectation murder hope.
I forgave it and let it go.
My hope still lives from beyond the grave
like a ghost haunting my life.

15.
I saw egos as gardens and learned:
Some humans keep them tidy and beautiful,
others don’t.

16.
I saw words as more than merely letters
and sentences more than these words.
They were ancient pin pricks of light
like stars piercing the blanket of night,
making it more than just heavy but beautiful too.

17.
I observed seasons in everything;
from harsh stormy winters to beautiful lush summers
and depending where one is located in life,
we sometimes see winters all year-long.

18.
I felt this year was a day.
Every two hours – a month.
I slept for at least six of those hours,
but I’m awake now.
I saw the hours for what they were
and now I await for a beautiful sunrise.

 

Wishing you ALL a happy safe New Year. Although your year may have been incredibly shite, reflect on what you have experienced and hopefully you can take away something positive from the negative. Remember that truth is a bigger duality and we are often too small to see it, we get glimpses and slices which we see as good or bad. There is no right and wrong, only lessons and I do hope you have all learned yours. All the best for 2014.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

A new year, a new beginning…

A happy new year to my readers, I trust the last of your 2012 was fantastic and your 2013 is off to a positive start.

This past festive season has been an enlightening time for me. I cannot explain, but it truly feels as though I see things slightly more clearly. Throughout the year our experience and decisions somewhat accumulate and ofttimes we are unable to deal with them and give them their due attention. Sometimes it is hard to confront situations and people and we end up dismissing them and we convince ourselves that we will deal with it a bit later. These issues don’t get resolved and you will often find that it’s these issues that weigh heavy on your mind and anchor you down, preventing you from moving on – evolving.

What we need to understand is that life and existence is not stagnant. Everything keeps on going, there is always a movement and we need to be aware so we too can “move with the times” so to speak. Nothing is ever in the same place. The earth, solar system, even our galaxy is in perpetual motion, speeding through space – every moment different in time and space to the next, an evolution if you will.

It is the natural progression of life and we should also be striving to progress – better ourselves. To do this we must learn, act and evolve and this can only be done if there is nothing holding you back. Those issues that lay unresolved are lessons waiting to be learned. To truly learn a life lesson, I believe we must live out our conclusions or morals. This, I believe, leads us to enlightenment so we can be a more evolved being, one that is more than mere flesh and bone. Our existence and being is more than just a physical. We are  intellectual, sentient beings capable of infinite imagination and higher consciousness. This makes us more evolved than animal, not better, just more evolved.

I feel we should be striving for a stronger higher consciousness as opposed to satisfying our “animal conscience”, which I think is our physical, earthly body. We have a higher consciousness, which I believe can give us control over our conditioned minds. I think we need to be awakened to our higher consciousness, which I feel can be done by truly learning life’s lessons –  find the connection between everything and live your conclusion.

There is always a price –  a cause and effect. That price is our conditioned way of thinking, which often goes against the grain of society or our selfish, animalistic tendencies.  Are you willing to pay? To let go of your conditioned way of thinking, even if that means swimming against society’s current? That is often the price – popularity.

I hope you were all able to confront those issues that may have been haunting you in 2012, and may your slate be clean for 2013. A new cycle has begun and with it will come lessons…

 

 

A new year

Christmas and New year celebrations came and they left us just as quickly.  Now we face the popular 2012.  What shall this year bring for us?  Who knows?!  But it is OK not to know.  People have become so tenacious with their ideals and what they perceive to be truth, when in actual fact we know very little about everything.  In the past we have been fed contorted truths, which has led us to feel our way around our existence with the lights turned off.  We are the blind.  All of us.  We are seldomly led by enlightened and truthful people.  Our lives and what we have become to know as society  are being led by blind shepherds.  Blind shepherds leading blind sheep.

As time has gone by we have exchanged our gut instinct, our intuition for so-called pleasure, leisure and forced perspectives.  Just like the blind are able to compensate for their lack of sight, we too should compensate with our gut feeling.  I don’t believe this world is going to end this year, but I do believe we going through pretty large changes.  Perhaps this is the year the vast majority of us will awaken and hear our inner voice which we all have that guides us.   I hope this is the year we are able to open our minds to possibilities without unnecessary confrontations.  May we stamp out our egos and evolve this year.  I wish you all the very best for 2012…

Reflection

It’s the winding down of a crazy year for many of us.  A brief chance to shake off the past year and try reset before the most popular year takes hold.  Many of us will look apon this last year and take stock of all the good and all the mad and bad we have experienced.  This is the time of year we reflect on our thoughts and try make sense of this year of existence and hopefully we have learned from our collective experience.  We need to reflect from time to time as life continues.  It may be the end of a year but cycles have no end.  The seasons will come and go, change is imminent and life will continue.  Like the cyclic nature of the seasons brings change from time to time it also brings back the familiar, almost as if this life force is allowing us time to learn from it.  Since there ultimately is no “end” ; every end gives rise to a beginning, surely we can learn from these cycles.  We need to take the time to learn by observation and reflection.

Many people reflect in their quiet time, whatever that may be.  Some people use sports and others art.  These photographs are reflections off a window of my girlfriend painting.  I love watching her paint.  There is a calm about it, but yet a focus, possibly her place where she can reflect.  We all need that outlet.  So this year-end reflect on the world, reflect on your personal life, reflect on this life and what it is/means for you.  Hopefully this end-of-year-reflection will leave us a bit wiser and on solid ground for the most talked about year…

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I don’t shoot flash very often, even in low light.  I like to bump up the ISO even if it does bring about grain.  I feel it brings more of the feeling of how that moment really was.  These photographs were shot on 3200 ISO off a window in our lounge with the street in the background.